The Last Star

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

I Miss You Bloggie!

 Truth ok! I do miss my bloggie a lot :( and I'm sorry for having a new post this late.

O levels are finishing soon so imma be back ya, don't worry.
I got a feeling that I kinda screwed it at the same time i'm gonna be fine, but yeah... LONG STORY~

Anyway, I'll be finishing my O levels soon with one last paper (Science multiple choice) on.. er.. fuck... (I don't even know when).
Ahem! so.. I'm kinda free in a way that's why I'm typing something to my bloggie and you humans. I do drop by at my blog sometimes, just that I don't have much time to post something since I type a lot :)
I'm spending time with hubby now. Yes, 5.45a.m. Haha, we're awesome!

Lalala~

Hubby, if you're looking at this: NENENIPUPU~ ;P

Ok, morning fellas, night night for us.

Take care and thanks for reading :)

Is it all Wrong?

Is being different wrong?

Is being care-free wrong?

Is having a hobby wrong?

Is having a dream that you like might not give you a rich future wrong?

Is being born in a broken family wrong?

Is loving someone with different age, color, sex wrong?

Is having a style you like wrong?

Is being attention grabber wrong?

Is trying to dress nice, sexy, cute & more wrong?

Is being caring wrong?

Then again....

Is imperfect wrong? If so, what is perfect?

Fucked up

I don't know why but the only thing I can think about other than Hubby is my blog. The place where I can pour out my sadness and all. The fucking bitch (My tuition teacher) called my mum and told her I skip her class and some shit like that. No, that didn't matter much.

but...
I got mad though. I cried.

Go ahead. Do what you want, I'm not afraid.

I don't know what to do now, nothing much in my mind. I'm always clueless, wanting to run away when my anger and sadness get over me.

I heard that fucking bitch told my mum that my friend told her that if I fail my o levels, I'll go for baking(implying that it's ok that I fail) and the whole school knows that too. Yup, my mum got pissed off.

I hate the people...
Goodnight to the kindness that this world had forgotten. Guess I'll be the next.

 

I hope you'll be ok my love.

Waiting for tomorrow!

Ok, Aside from tomorrow's extra class, all my classmate(G4) are going out to celebrate a very special day of Sathya.
Happy Birthday rich guy~
Another reason it's hard to find a present that could go up to your expectation -.- ish, so mafan la.
I'm so excited to hang out with them since we seldom do that because of the upcoming O levels exam.
My present is very freaking simple so don't judge and appreciate it :)
I got to go baking now


PS: Sorry for not updating much for my blog guys :(

Take care humans.

Ciao ciao~

Mock Exam

Sorry for leaving my blog for quite some time, I've been busy. Life is sort of a disaster these few days :(
Very stress. I've been skipping some class just to study what I've left out, of course I told my mum about it and she have confident in me doing my way.

The thing is, today I have maths paper 1 and Business paper 2 which I did not study. I might pull a lil off for maths and I can do better in paper 2 to cover more marks but for business, I confirmed that I've failed my paper 1 and now? Doomed! Well, I guess I'll just do better (To at least get a pass if I can) for other subjects. I don't mind if I fail only one subject out of 5 since I'm not going to college with my Forecast results.

I don't know whether I should start worrying now when I know I don't have time to study anymore and it's hard to get it to me in an amount of time. Should I freak out? or should I just don't care about it? It annoys me so much when I'm indecisive. It makes me frustrated at the same time wanting to cry.
Oh God I'm WEAK-.-

I think lately my stress is taking control of my health. Not enough sleep, Junk food, Coffee/ Tea, Appetite and more. I can't wait till this is over. I think I'm getting thinner T.T

SLEEPY!!!

NEED MORE COFFEE :(

Got to go now. Take care guys~
Good Luck for those who also have mock exam/ other exam.
Ciao ciao...

Cornflakes chocolate!

Well as the title said it, today I've made some cornflakes chocolate =3
It's basically cornflakes covered in chocolate. I used white Belgian chocolate.
Haha, it seems so easy right? yup, I think so to when I heard from friends and watch from Youtube.

*Demon face* It's matha farking hard! stewpid chocolate doesn't melt the way it wanted! The freakiang cornflakes doesn't get all covered in the chocolate! FARKKKKKK!

*Back to cuteness* Opps! Went a lil off. Keke. In the end I managed to find a way out. Peace out!

I'm looking forward to share it with people I love and care tomorrow.

Here we go :)

There's one was not taken and not posted here because it's special.

I've got to go do my piles of homework T-T

Wish me luck! Bye~

Sickkkkk

Ok, I'm not exactly sick but I had massive period pain from yesterday till the afternoon today. Yes, I skipped a class today and I'm not happy nor sad about it because mock exam are coming. The results of it are quite important I heard.

Hmmm....

Fuck....

*Panicking*  T^T
I'm TRYING to study my ass off already lah!

Well back to the main point. Hubby bought lunch and drop by. Hubby made tea and fed me. HAHAHA!
Oh, I got chocolates too :) Yum yum!
Then we spend our time watching Bones until around 5.15p.m. then Hubby had to go.
It was fun with Hubby around. I'm not lonely.
Talking bout lonely... I'M ALL ALONE AT HOME!!!
Apart from housework and all, I like the peaceful night with the feel of the wind blowing. It calms you down :)

Well, got to go study my ass off now.
Good luck people for the coming mock exam! ;)
Ciao ciao

My heart stays the same

Hey My Future Lover...
That if you see this.

Do you know you mean a lot to me?

Do you know sometimes a sentence of words are actually hard to come out from me?

Do you know I giggle like a kid, smiling to myself whenever I prepare a surprise for you?

Do you know I'm always waiting impatiently for you in the morning cause I want to see you as soon as possible?

Do you know I sing in my shower sometimes when I think of you?

Do you know I look at your facebook profile most of the time before I sleep?

Do you know annoy you for your attention?

Do you know I tend to get insecure without you?

Do you know I think of you and I everytime I listen to love songs?

Do you know that I always want to protect you from anyone or even the world?

Do you know I will beat the hell up whoever that bully you?

Do you know I want to let you see a table full of nice breakfast everyday when you wake up?

Do you know I complain to my soft toys sometimes about you not being here?

Do you know I always wanted to be helpful to you all the time, taking care of you?

Do you know I love you ?

More than sweet stuff

More than money

MORE THAN ANYTHING

I love you always and forever. That is a fact that no one can change or decide. You'll never gonna be alone.

From Your Future Lover

Studies problem/ sickness?

Yup, it's 4.30a.m. now, awake, wondering what should I do.

 I want to sleep but I have homework.

I want to ditch school but I wanna go and see my friends and Hubby.

I don't want to do my homework but I have school tomorrow.

I want to eat but I don't know what to eat.

For the sake of God's love, why the fark is it so hard to choose or not to be lazy? That teacher is so gonna ask me this and that, tell me to go for saturday class-.- ish! I know that I should do my homework but my freaking brain doesn't work that fast so it's sort of not much time. 

Ok, back to the main point. I'm not moving forward with my studies (Homework)! WTH! I mean come on, I got tons of homework which teacher gave, a day and try to finish is not easy since one day is ONLY 24 hour. What? Do you expect me not sleep now? Half of my day, I'm at school. After that I need to rest or not my body will black out (A person need to sleep at least 7/8 hours a day for health). Then only left few hours for homework, not only for one subject but others too. 

I know o levels are coming and we should push ourself to work harder but that's just tooooo much. Let me try giving you bout 3 subject with different amount of homework, I guess you'll break down too. Another thing is that our studies isn't really moving forward too. We haven't covered all the chapters yet so can't they teach one/ two chapter then give a little amount to let us remember then quickly move to another chapter then after covering all the chapters, we'll have more homework to revise back and all so we don't have to be so last minute. It does make sense here right?

I know I'm lazy most the time but I can't seem to get motivated though. I can actually try doing and all but I wasn't motivated. I guess that's the reason I don't really study or do my homework. I guess I'll try some stuff that makes myself happy if I study. Like buying yourself flower that sent to your house and written 'By your secret lover, my good girl, keep studying. Good luck'? LOL. Ahhh. I don't know lah. Well good luck to me then...

I shall try doing a some of my work while I have the time even though it's hard T^T

Imma try my best people, I'm trying to make changes in myself already ;)

Good luck to me <3

Deco-den

Letme say craft is part of my hobby. I like decorating stuff like deco-den ( Google up if you don't know cause I don't know how to explain) or making sweet stuff clay (Polymers/ Fimo/ Sculpey Clay and more). So I was making some clays for my deco-den and I finished up everything (Including accessories) in the morning about 9a.m. LOL! Well I don't sleep at night that's why *jet lag.

It consist Biscuit( With whip-cream, strawberry and drizzle of melted chocolate), Two types of donuts (One with melted chocolate and another with pink topping) and a pop tart. Others is jewels, pearls and pink ribbon. Yup, I made it ;P

It's art alright! Don't simply categorize "my art" and "girly stuff" together -.-

Hubby says it looks nice and edible 0.0' 

Me: *Open the room door*.

Hubby: *Gonna eat my phone*.

Me: NOOO! How many times we talked about not eating this *Getting dramatic*

Hubby: I'm Hungwy~ :'(

Lol, Ahhh.... Don't I just love hubby

Well, just wanna show you guys some of my hobbies and proudly say that I'm not scared to show what my hobby is like, you shouldn't too. Just don't give a crap about what people say :)

'Don't Judge Me!'

Moody? Happy?

First of all, I wanna thanks my awesome readers that my blog views reached 1,000/ more by now when you see it. Thanks from the bottom of my heart, I appreciate it. It keeps me going.
 Well since I'm awake and I feel weird so i'm just gonna update my blogie.
Can't rest back since i'm awake and I don't want to overslept cause I have study group/ extra class at school today.

I'm feeling so weird...

Happy or Moody.

Coffee or Redbull.

Dress or Pants.

Eat or Not eat.

Go or Not go.

Worry or Not to.

To get high or Not to.

Fake it or Leave it.

This or That.

Left or Right.

Up or Down.

Hate or Love.

All these, I don't seem to know what to choose. I'm like.. In between I guess. Maybe I'm getting stressed up by my upcoming o levels. I guess I need to study more since i'm seriously lagging among most students. My studies aren't improving, a clearer explanation without comparing.

It's like I want my freedom as much as I want my studies. I just can't help enjoying my freedom I have even though I'll have legal freedom (State by mum) by the time I finish my o levels. I hate this weird feelings. I'll try my best to work harder. Imma try my best to reject as many temptation possible except...

 SWEET STUFF! ;)

SORRY FOR PARTY ROCKIN! >.<'

TEMPTATION IS HARD TO RESIST!

Take care people, don't fall for temptation too much :)

Zombie Apocalypse! 2

Ok, the second thing u can think of when zombie apocalypse is... What to do?!
I saw this youtube video which let you know what to do or not to do. I think it kinda make sense. Well you know, to sum up everything and not copy, I'll just let u guys see the video. Easier :)

PART 1

PART 2

Okie guys. I'll try to keep my blog update. 

Take care and keep alert incase of zombies :)

Zombie Apocalypse!

Today's subject will be zombie. The questions then come...
What will you do?
Are you able to do it?
Or you just gonna give up and be a zombie? -.-

NOTE: This topic is gonna be very long (Don't say I don't warn you)

Maybe, just maybe it might happen and i'm still in the process of trying to be prepared for it. You can not read at all if you're gonna say this is stupid and when the time comes, you're gonna become one of those disgusting zombie which I will cut your head off/ shoot you in the head with a gun if so :) Just sayin~

It has 'possibility' that zombie apocalypse will take place. Like a disease that can be spread in physical contact? Maybe some mad scientist create to make the dead to living (in a good way) but fail? I don't know.

Ok, back to the main point. What will you do if zombie apocalypse? Just so you know, it's gonna be very sudden. You won't know the date and time of zombie apocalypse in order to get you ready. Maybe it's your special day or something then it happen.
All the world, going crazy.

 Can you accept all that? Blood everywhere, Screaming/ crying of people's death, Appearance of zombies, Numbers of zombies coming to you and most of all, people you treasure might get bitten/ eaten. Your fear might froze you to your death. Don't go saying you can kill the zombies unless you have NO FEAR AT ALL
And when the times come, IF people you love or small kids that got bitten, can you kill them with your own hands? It's either you kill or die and become one of them. Are you able to do it?

People... Will you kill and live on or die and rise from the dead as not yourself anymore? That is a question for you to answer for yourself.

The next post will most likely to be asking what will you bring with u and what will I do. Suggestion and opinion to choose.

Take care and keep alert incase of zombies :)

STUDIES!

Yup, I know. It's 4.50A.M. now.
Why didn't I sleep? GOOD QUESTION!

Because of some effing work to do. My studies are getting harder and harder with torture since my o levels are less than 10 weeks (Fuck I'm nervous!). Well I'm still in the process of cope up with the others even though it's kinda hard, but I ain't gonna give up ;)

Imma try my best in this!
For people who are suffering with me that is going to have their o level or spm, I wish you guys the best and good luck with your studies wherever you are. Don't give up and try your very best. After that, you can party all you want and crazy about it. Ain't I right?

Ok, I think I need some rest or not I might fall asleep in last class later. Gotta stop my work now and get some rest then off to school. Oh, I just remember it's a new semester, new people to know and sexy babe wanna take photo with people include me. Guess Imma have a lil make u to cover my panda eyes then T-T

Oh ya! I wanna thank God that there's something called coffee in the world man, It does help to be awake ;)
*Coffee lover

Yes, I'm in my Pajamas, my hair is clipped up and I'm listening music (Which is to keep me awake). 

Don't judge me! 

Ciao~ Keep smiling people :)

A lunch and movie

Yesterday I had extra class-.- Well, I have to go to improve my studies since o levels are nearing. At first teacher told me the class starts at 9.45am-12.45pm but suddenly about 8am+, she sms-ed my mum and me that class starts at 8.15 and I'm late. It's so WTF?! But yeah, I rushed and she told me this and that trying to push the blame away-.- 

After that, I suppose to have Physics at like 11.15-12.45 but some people went for lunch and some went home so I was like o.0? but ya, I think she change the timetable AGAIN without letting me know.

Anyway, I don't want to make that the main point.

So I told Hubby that we can have lunch at Curve and Hubby agreed. It's just some normal couple lunch laaa~ So I went home change and went Curve with my mum. I walk around, bought an elmo cupcake, some biscuit snacks for Hubby's mum and a bouquet of flowers. I was so looking forward to see Hubby^^

 Then after that I meet Hubby at the street. Btw my lover, It was hard for me to walk with that flower when everyone is looking when I pass by them. So we decided to eat at Dome (Which Hubby and I like).

Oh! Oh! Oh! Hubby kept blushing after receiving the flowers. *Wink*
Note to everyone: Girls giving guys flower isn't weird, it's the same as guys giving girls flowers. In relationship, both sex will want to feel appreciated and love. right? And girls, do the same once in awhile and you'll amaze them. Maybe not flowers but like self-made cookies, cake, sandwich and more.

Even though it's raining, everything seem so calm and warm when I'm with Hubby.

After that, we went to catch a movie called 'The rise of the planet of apes'. It was nice! Then after that we went to have Mcd, walk around before we go home. Ahh, we didn't stop talking and laughing all the way :)
When we enjoy and appreciate the time, it goes so fast. I didn't want it to end :'(

Yup, it's just some normal yet special lunch and movie <3
No, it's not a date "YET". Keke.
I love spending time with hubby :)

Btw, I'm a little busy so most post will be at night or midnight (Maybe I get inspired by those time, Lol)
Anyway, have a good day humans~
Enjoy reading, Ciao~